To the ones I love. To the ones I left behind

I've been wanting to write this post for the longest time. I could never get myself to do it though. So I decided to finally gather all my courage to write this. This is my ode to the 4 dogs who absolutely changed my life. No. I'm not exaggerating or romanticizing my story. If heaven was a place on earth, it would be where these angels were. They've been my guardian angels, my partners in crime and my soulmates in a city where I did not have many friends. So here it is.. my ode to the four angels who, though I have left behind, I will never forget. 

Dear Maya, Bell, Zora and Alice

It breaks my heart to write this to you. Not a day passes by without me thinking about you.  I know you’ll never ever read it. But I still needed to write this because I have too much to be thankful to you for.

Thank you my dear dear angels.

Thank you for being my saviours in a city where chances of finding true love was grim. Thank you for rejoicing at the sight of me every morning. Thank you trusting me with getting food for you every day. And for running with me to class every morning. Actually, thank you for being more enthusiastic about my classes every morning than I would ever be. Thank you for loving me like you did. And for comforting me on days when I had no one to turn to. Thank you for taking care of me on days I was inconsolable. For listening to my rants very patiently before finally, very enthusiastically, licking my tears off my face. Thank you for sitting with me in the corridors while I wrote my assignments. Thank you for teaching me to be happy and over enthusiastic about practically everything in the world.

If heaven was a place on earth, it was right where you and I would be. I’ll never be able to thank you enough for coming into my life like angels when I needed you most.

I try not thinking about you here, in Delhi. I've kept our memories hidden somewhere in the corner of my heart. Like your photographs. I never open them. I'm scared if I do, I’ll break down. I keep myself preoccupied with the cats here. I’m so glad my work here is hectic. It never allows me to stop and think about you. If I could tell you how much I wish you were right with me..or how much I yearn to see you everyday, you wouldn't believe me. I miss your hugs. I miss your enthusiasm. I miss us!

And while I sob and write this ode to you, an ode you’ll never read, I want you to know that I have never loved anyone like I have loved you. And I will never forget you and how I felt when I was with you. And though my dear dear angels, we’re faaaaar apart, memories of us are a part of me I’ll always hold very close to my heart.

Love,
I miss you.

My calm and wise Zora!

Alice. The seductress. The charmer. The cuddler!

Bell. The Alpha. The protector. The loyal one.

Maya. my over affectionate, over excited mad child